Well butter mah biscuit, ain't that a hole in the boat? Got so caught up with my job n' such that I completely missed my own dA anniversary again X___X I joined on the 17th of this month 7 years ago...man, that's a long bloody time looking back on it.
Much has changed over the last several years...Admittedly I'm not nearly as far as I'd like to be or as close to some folks as I'd like. It is hard to hang in there and it's been a rough year for everyone it seems. Love was had and then lost, and the future seems less joyous every day...shucks, I've started hating the Holiday season more and more with every year, but I think that just comes naturally in this day n' age. Whatever magic people may see or have in this month, it sure doesn't rub off on me when stress-inducing fate lacks the same compassion, but I have to hang in there. I have to believe things will get better...that these inner demons can be felled, they can be beaten. Dark times have befallen me in recent months, and perseverance and the faintest glimmer of hope have to kindle the flames I used to have. I ain't expecting much to play in my favor naturally, so all I can do is hang in there and do what I can to survive and find something to love again.
...By Beholster's Eye, sorry if that got a tad personal. It's been a rough stretch of days in recent times, but at least I can try to accentuate the positive...it's what Bing Crosby would do! Looking back at old works definitely make me cringe, as is the norm for just about any artist XD Obtaining a tablet for my birthday resulted in hours of practice and some pics I'm modestly pleased with. I've still a long ways to go, but I'm getting better as steady as can be. At the very least I can be more proud in my work, that I've made progress I didn't even see myself making years back when I started. I'm also immeasurably grateful for the friends I've made on here that I've come closer to, recently some more than ever. There isn't a day when I don't think about the kindness of others and how they've helped keep me from falling apart, the people I can depend on and trust in my deepest, darkest hour. Such wonderful friends are worth so much more than the money I can make, and them staying by my side is the biggest thing to keep me waking up and trying every day. If I make a list it'd be a long one and I know I'd slip up and leave people out, but you all know who you are...and you have my eternal gratitude.
As the year is ready to reach its turning point, a day of new light is soon to be upon us. There are wounds to be mended and lessons to be learned, but the struggle will surely be worth it...after all, there can be no bravery without madness.